THe NotebOOk
Monday, December 28, 2009
look from the window
down from the window
outside the window
out from the window
he bites his lip to hold his tongue
the silly things that have been done
remember all the times before
she said she couldn't love him more
he bites his lip to dam the tears
the truth has realized his fears
some people never change their ways
breathing hate and love the same way
but why does he feel he must justify himself
to judge the fairness of moving on?
when he found to regain an emotion once shared
with the girl in the window
he bites his lip to stay the rage
because their minds don't accept change
although the anger's justified
knows the heat just fuels the problems pride
he bites his lip to stop the laughter
look ahead to the next chapter
without regret he looks ahead
and to the future gladly rests his head
¶ 9:57 AM
Monday, December 21, 2009
some days the constant buzz
rumbles underneath the skin
those day it might win
i find the life beyond the whim
it's living too thin
these days it might win
come closer dear
come re-live the fear
come don't mind the mess
i leave behind
i know where everything is
try to make amends with empty words
conversation makes the feeling worse
i search
for ways to let the notion go
"put on a happy face" you know?
i don't keep masks on my shelf
remind me why i'm not gone again
¶ 9:26 AM
Monday, December 14, 2009
only a piece of me
was left relieved
when, finally, you chose
to run away
from what we thought was good
but happy thoughts
don't sooth the pain/hurt
that left me sleeping
at home alone
and you're bringing it back again
every step away
you run in close
like stalking your prey
find the most remote
way to keep a tether tied
around me
should i think it flattering
to find it's still
awkward feeling, so much
when i'm just being civil?
you should know that the piece of me
is no longer free
for the games that you play:
let go, let me love again
in peace
ask me to look at the pictures
call me to hang with your friends
not til you make clear your motives
it seems you want me to love you again
¶ 9:44 AM
